Main dekhane me theek thaak sundar hu. gora ramg. bara badan. aakarshak chehara. bade bade tane hue uroj. maamsal jaanghe. ubhare hue koolhe. yaani ki mard ko priy lagane waali har cheej mere paas he. lekin mai vidhava hoom. mere paas mard hi nahi hai. mere pati ka dehaant hue saat saal hue hem. mere ek ladaka hai.usake janm ke samay hi mere pati chal base the.ab munne ki umar saat saal ki hai. pichale saat saal se mai vidhava ka jeevan gujaar rahi hum. mera ghar ka bada sa makaan he. usame mere alaawa kiraayedaar bhi rahate hem. me skool me teechar hum..ye mere jeevan ki sachchi kahaani hai. aap se kuch nahi chupaaugi. dara-asal seks ko lekar meri haalat kharaab thi.

mene pati ke gujarane ke baad kisi mard se sambhog nahi kiya. saat saal ho gaye. din to gujar jaata hai par raat ko badi baicheni rahati hai. mai theek se so bhi nahi paati hu man bhatakata rahata hai. raat ko apani jaamghom ke beech takiya laga kar ragadati hoom. kai baar kalpana me kisi mard ko basa kar usase sambhog karati hoom...aur takiya ragadati hoom. man me sada yahi hota rahata hai ki koi mard mujhe apani baahom me le kar pees daale.mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye.mere saath naana prakaar ki kriyaaye kare. par aisa koi moka nahi hai. maire vidhava hone ki vajah se pati ka pyaar meri kismat me nahi hai..yu to mohalle ke bahut se mard mere peeche pade rahate hai par mera man kisi par nahi aata. mai darati hum. ek to samaaj se ki doosarom ko maalum padega to log kya kahemge ? paas pados hai...rishtedaar hai..skool hai..dusare khud se ki agar kahi bachcha thahar gaya to kya karumgi ? isaliye mai khud hi tadapati rahati hum. mujhe to sharm bhi bahut aati hai ki ab kisi se kya kahum ki mere paas mard nahi hai aao mujhe chodo...aap se man ki baat kahi hai. mere din inhi paristhitiyom me nikal rahe the..

inhi manodasha ke beech ek din mere sambandh mere naukar se ban gaye..hariya, mera naukar.umra, 30-35 ki hai. gaav ka hai. pahaadi taakatawar kasarati deh pholadi badan thoda kaala ramg badi badi mumche yum rahata saaf suthara hai. pichale do saal se mere paas naukar hai. maine use apane hi ghar me ek kamara de rakha hai. is prakaar wo hamaare saath hi rahata hai. usaki beebi gaamv me rahati hai. bachche hai-paamch ! saal me ek do baar chutti lekar gaamv jaata hai...baaki samay hamaare saath hi rahata hai.mai skool jaati hum atah usake rahane se mujhe badi sahooliyat rahati hai. wah beedi bahut peeta hai. ek tarah se wah hamaare ghar ka sadasya hi hai..ek aurat ki drashti se dekhum to wah pura mard hai aur usame wo sab khubeeyaam hai jo ek mard me hona chaahiye...bas jara kaala hai aur beedi bahut peeta hai..yah kahaani hariya aur mere sambandh ki hai..us din. shaam ka samay tha. munna ghar se baahar khelane gaya tha. mai aur hariya ghar me akele the. mai gir padi...

giri to jor se cheekhi...ghabara gayi. hariya daud kar aaya..aur mujhe god me utha kar palamg par litaaya..bibijee..kaha lagi.doctor ko bulaau ?nahi..nahi.doctor ki kya jarurat hai..wese hi theek ho jaaugi.tab.aayodeksa laga dum. wah daud kar gaya aur aayodeks ki sheeshi le aaya..kaha lagi hai bataao..bibijee. usaka vyavahaar dekh mai kah di.yahaam..peeche lagi he..pomd par.. wah mujhe ulta kar ke lita diya. aur mere pomd par apane haath laga kar dekhane laga. sacha kahum to usaki harakatem mujhe achchi lag rahi thi. aaj do saal se wo mere saath haikabhi usane mere saath koi galat harakat nahi kiya hai. aaj is tarah usaka mujhe pahale god me uthaanaphir abhi ulat kar pomd sahalaana..wo to meri chomt dekhane ke bahaane mere pomd ko sahalaane hi lag gaya tha. lekin usaka haath,usaka sparsha mujhe achcha hi lag raha tha. isaliye mai chup padi rahi. wah pahale to baitha kar meri saadi par se pomd sahalaayaa-phir kamar par malham lagaaya. malham lagaate lagaate bolabibijee tanik saadi dheeli kar lo..

neeche tak laga deta hum.saadi kharaab ho jaayegi.mujhe to dard ho raha tha aur usaka sparsha achcha bhi lag raha thaath mene thunakate hue haath neeche le ja kar peteekot ka naada kheech diya..aur saadi peteekot dheela kar diya..mai to ulti padi thihariya ne jab kaampate haathom se mere kapade neeche karake mere pomd pahali baar dekhe to janaab ki seeti nikal gayi...mumh se nikala.bibijee..aap to bahut gori haim.aap ke jaisa to hamaare gaamv me ek bhi nahi hai. apani taareef sun mai sharama gayi. wo to achcha tha ki mai aumdhi padi thi..akele bamd kamare me jawaan maalakin ke saath us ki bhi haalat kharaab thi.kareeb chah mahine se wah apani beebi ke paas nahi gaya tha. maire gore gore pomd dekh kar usaki dhadakane badh gayee,haath kaampane laga. par mard ho kar itana achcha mauka kaise chod deta ?.mere gore gore maamsal nitamb dawaai lagaane ke bahaane sahalaane laga. dawa kam lagaaihaath jyaada phera..jab sahalaate sahalaate thodi der ho gayi aur usane dekha ki mai virodh nahi kar rahi hum to aage badh gaya.khulepan se mere dono kulhom par haath chalaane laga. pahale ek..phir dusara..jahaam chomt nahi lagi thi vahaam bhi..

phir dono kulhom ke beech ki gahari ghaati bhi..jab wo maire dono kulhom ko haath se choda karake beech ki jagah dekha to mai to saams lena hi bhool gayi. wah choda kar ke mera guda dwaar aur peeche ki or se meri chut tak dekh liya tha. ab aapako kya bataau us ke haath ke sparsh se hi mai kaamuk ho uthi thi. aur meri chut ki jagah geeli geeli ho chali thi. meri chut par kaaphi bade bade baal the..mene apani jhaamtem kai maheenom se nahi banaai thi. mujh vidhava ka tha bhi kaun..jis ke liye mai apani chut ko saja sawaamr kar rakhati ? kamare me shaam ka dhumdhalaka to tha par abhi andhera nahi hua tha. mai ek anokhe daur se gujar rahi thi..mera naukar sahala raha tha aur mai padi padi sahalawa rahi thi. mera naukar mere guptaamg ko peeche se dekh raha tha aur mai padi padi dikha rahi thi. yahaam tak to theekpar jab usane jaanabujh kar ya anjaane mem mere guda dwaar ko apani umgali se tch kiya to mai uchak padi. shareer me jaise karent laga ho..ek dam se usaka haath pakad ke hata di aur kah uthihaay..kya..karate..ho..saath hi haath jhatak kar utha baithi. mai ghabara gayi thi aur mujh se jyada wo ghabaraaya hua tha. mai usaka iraada nek na samajha kar palamg se utara padi. parantu mera wo utha kar khade hona gajab ho gaya. kyom ki meri saadi to khuli hui thi. khadi hui to saadi aur peteekot dono dhalakakar paavom me ja gire... TBC..