aur mai kamar ke neeche namgi ho gayi. is prakaar apane naukar ke aage namge hone me mere sharam ka paaraawaar na tha. meri to saams hi atak gayi. mai ghabaraahat mem vahi jamin par baitha gayi.. tab vah mujhe ek baar phir god me utha kar palamg par daal diya. aur agale pal jo kiya us ki to maine kalpana tak nahi ki thee-ki aaj mere saath aisa bhi hoga. usane mujhe palamg par patakaa aur khud mere upar chadhata chala gaya. ek pal ko mai neeche thi wo upar..doosare pal meri taamge uthi hui thi..teesare pal wo meri taamgom ke beech tha..

chothe pal usane apani dhoti ke ek aur se apana lund baahar kar liya tha..paamchawe pal usane haath me pakad kar apana lund meri chut se ada diya tha..aur...chathe pal...to ek moti si..garam si..kadak si.cheej mere andar thi. aur...bas.phir kya tha.kamare mem shaam ke samay naukarmaalakin...aurat aur mard ban gaye the. meri to saams bamd ho gayi thi. shareer aith gaya tha. dhadakane ruk gayi thi. aamkhe pathara gayi thi. jeebh sookh gayi thi. mai apane hosh me nahi thi ki mere saath kya ho raha hai. jo kar raha tha wo wah kar raha tha. mai to bas chup padi thi. na maine koi sahayog diya.na maine koi virodh kiya. bas...jo usane kiya wo karawa liya. saat saal baad..ghar ke naukar se...

pata nahi kya hua mai to koi virodh hi na kar saki. bas.usane ghuseda...aur chod diya...mere mumh se uf bhi na nikali. mai padi rahi taamgom ko uthaayeaurwo dhakke pe dhakke maarata gaya...pata nahi kitani der.pata nahi kitani der..usaka mota sa lund meri chut ko raumdata raha. ragadta rahaa mai behosh si padi karawaati rahi.phir...ant aaya..wo mere andar dher sa paani chod diya...mai apane naukar ke veerya se tarabatar ho uthi.. jab wah alag hua to mai kaampati hui uthi aur namgi hi baatharum chali gayi. mere man me yah bodh tha ki yah mene kya kar daala..ek vidhava ho kar chudawa li..wo bhi ek naukar se.apane naukar se..haay yah kya ho gaya.yah galat hai...yah nahi hona chaahiye tha. ab kya hoga ???????.mai baatharum gayi. wahaam baitha kar mooti. mujhe badi jor ki pishaab lagi thi. mene jhuk kar dekha..meri jhaatem usake veerya se chipachipa rahi thi. mene sab paani se saaf kiya. itane me aur pishaab a gayi. aur mooti. phir taawel lapet kar baahar nikali to saamane hariya khada tha.mujh se to nazar bhi na milaayi gai.aur mai bagal se nikal ke apane kamare me chali gayi.. (dusari baar ).us shaam mai baatharoom se nikal kar bistar par ja giree.

letate hi mujhe khumaari ki gahari Nind aayee.kareeb saat saal baad maine kisi mard ka land liya thaa. chudaayi anjaane mem hui thee.beman se hui thee,phir bhi chudaayi to chudaayi thee.mai to aisi padi ki munna ne hi a kar jagaayaa..raat khaane ki mej par mai hariya se akhe nahi mila pa rahi thee.badi mushkil se maine khaana khaayaa...baar baar dil mem yahi khyaal aata ki memne yah kya kar daalaa-apane naukar se chudawa li..vidhava hokar..kaisa paap kar daalaa..raat mai khaane ke baad bhi hariya se kuch na bolee.bas chupachaap munna ke saath ja kar apane kamare mem so gayee. so to gayi...par meri akhom mem Nind na thi.mai do bhaagom mem bat gayi thee-dil aur dimaag. dil aaj ki ghatana ko achcha kah raha tha.aur dimaag buraa. mera dil kahata tha mai vidhava ka jeevan ji rahi thee.agar bhagawaan ne meri sunakar ek land ka intajaam kar diya to kya kharaabi hai.par mera dimaag ise paap maan raha thaa..kya karum..kya na karum...sochate sochate mai munna ke saath leti thee. munnaabodhko meri manodasha ka gyaan nahi thaa. wah aaraam se so gaya tha..mai jaag rahi thee. ki darawaaje ki kundi bajee. kon ho sakata hai.? ghar mem hariya ke alaawa koi nahi thaa.

wahi hogaa. kyom aaya hai ab ? mai chup rahi to kundi phir bajee. tab mai utha kar gayi aur darawaaja kholaa. wahi thaa. use dekh mai jhemp si gayee..kyom aaye ho yaha ?bibijeeandar a jaaum ?nahitum jaaoyaha se aur mene darawaaja band kar liyaa..meri sas tej ho gayee. ma ree.yah to andar hi aana chaah raha thaa. kya karata andar a kar ? off.kya phir se..chudaayi.?????? ma..munna hai yaha..dubaara ? na baaba na..to kya ho gaya is mem.sab to karate hai..ek baar to karawa li ab or kya hai ? agar dubaara bhi karawa legi to kya bigad jaayega ? bhagawaan ne ek moka diya hai to usaka maja le.baar baar aise moke kaha milate hai. saat saal se taras rahi hum..mai padi rahi..sochati rahee. moka mila hai to rukama us ka phaayada uthaa.jawaani yum hi to nikal gayi hai.baaki bhi nikal jaayegi.achcha bhala aaya tha bechaaraa..bhaga diyaa. use to koi dusari mil jaayegee.us ki to aurat bhi hai.tera kon hai.tujhe kon milega ? paap he..paap he..me hi saari jindagi nikal gayee..

thodi der ho gayi to mujhe pachataawa hone laga ki bekaar ek maja lene ka chas kho diyaa. tab mai uthi aur ja kar kundi kholee.darawaaje ke baahar nikal kar dekhi..o ma..hariya to wahi deewaar se sata baitha thaa.aur beedi pi raha thaa.mujhe aaya dekhakar wah beedi phekakar utha khada huaa. mere paas aayaa.mai jhijhakati si haath mem saadi ka pallu lapetati hui boli...gaye nahi ab tak.. wah mera haath pakad kar apane haath me le liyaa.apana naram naram naajuk sa haath usake mardaana haath mem jaate hi mujhapar nasha sa cha gayaa..mujhe vishawaasa tha ki aap jaroor aaogee. kah kar wah mujhe apani taraf kheecha to mai nirvirodha usaki taraf khichi chali gayee.wah mujhe apani baahom mem badh liyaa.usake chode seene se lag kar mai jawaani ka anokha sukh pa gayee. mai us ke seene mem apana chehara chupa bol padee..hariya mujhe dar lagata hai...-dar kaisa beebeejee.

wah meri peeth par baahom ka bandhan sakht kar diyaa..mai kasamasaaee..ek mardaane badan mem bamdhana bada hi sukhad laga raha thaa..koi dekh lega na.. yaha ghar ke ghar mem kon dekhane aayega beebeejee.wah apani baahom ka bamdhan sakhta kiyaa..mai sharamaate hue usaki chodi chaati mem mumh chupa lee..munna to hai naa..-are wo to abhi chota hai..wo kya jaanata hai abhee..mai usaki baahom ke ghere mem kasamasaayee..aur jo kuch rah gaya to.mai vidhava kya karumgi ?kya ? wah kucha samajha nahi.yahi.mai jhijhakee..kah na paayee.rukee.sas lee. kahee..arare raam.kahi mai pet se rah gayi to... hariya ke dwaara garbhavati hone ki baat se hi mujhe jhurajhuri a gayee.jise usane saaph mahasus kiya..mere jawaan jism ko baahom me jakada aur peeth par haatha phiraata hua bolaa..bibijee yadi aisa ho jaaye ki bachcha na hoy to. mai us ki baahom ki garami mahsoos karati hui budabudaai.kya aisa ho sakata hai ?samajho ki aisa ho chuka hai..mai nazar uthaai..use dekhee. wah mumcho mem muskara diyaa..

abhi pichali baar chah mahine pahale jab mai gav gaya tha na to mene aapareshan karava liya thaa..mai us ki chaati mem naak ragadee..kaisa aapareshan ? yahi..bachche bamd hone kaa.-haay mujhe to bataaya hi nahi.ab aap ko kya bataata beebeejee...pach bachche to ho gaye.jab bhi gav jaata hum ek bachcha ho jaata hai...us ke kahane ka dhmg aisa tha ki.mujhe hmsi a gayee. mujhe hamsata pa usane mujhe aisi jor se bheecha ki mere uroj usake seene se dab uthe..aur phir wah aaturata se mere pichawaade par haath lagaaya to mai chihumk kar kah uthee..hariya..yaha nahi.. mera ishaara samajh hariya mera haath pakad kheechata hua mujhe apane kamare mem le gayaa. aur mai usake saath bina na nukur kiye chali gayee. hariya ka kamaraa...mere hi ghar ka ek kamara thaa. us mem ek khatiya bichi thee. ek kone me mori bani thi. aur dusare kone mem ek aaliya tha jisamem bhagawaan biraaje the. kamare mem pahumchakar to mere pav jaise jam se gaye. mai ek hi jagah khadi rah gayee.

tab wah wahi mujhe apani balishta bhujaao mem badha liyaa.mai chupachaap us ke seene se lag gayee..aap bahut khubasurat ho beebeejee.wah badabada uthaa.usake haath swatantrata se meri peeth par ghumane lage. mai khadi kuch der to usaki sahalaawat ka aanand leti rahee.mujhe bahut achcha lag raha thaa.saat saal baad kisi mard ka sparsha mila thaa. phir mai kunamuna ke bolee..hariya darawaaja laga do..-are bibijee yaha kon aayega...-uhum.tum to laga do.. wah ja kar darawaja laga aayaa. aake mere ko pakadaa.mai bichakee..hariya..laait..-bibijee rahane do na.andhere mem kya maja aayega.wah mujhe baahom mem badhaa.mujhe sharam aati hai naa.. wah na sunaa. bas peeche haath chalaata raha. mai thodi der baad phir kunamunaaee..laait bamd karo naa. tab wah beman se laait band kiyaa. kamare me andhera ho gayaa. andhere band kamare me mai abhi thodi si chen ki sas bhi na li thi ki wah mujhe pakad kar khatiya par patak diyaa.aur khud mere saath a gayaa..mera dil jorom se dhadak raha thaa. ab phir se chudane ki ghadi a gayi thee. wah mere saath gutham gutha ho gayaa. TBC