Shaam ko pehali baar maine Deepak ko Dekha … Smart Ladka tha … suljha hua aur Ek dum straight baat karta tha … mujh se kuch sawaal kiye … aur baas … jaisa maine soocha tha … rishta paaka hoo gaya …. Ghaar main sab Khush the … Magar mujhe koi khaas khushi nahi thi … mere liye ab ye saari baate bemani lagti thi … meri najar main har ladke ko sirf ladki ka shareer chahiye … aur kuch nahi … baaki baache paida karoo … pyaar jaisi cheej ki meri jindagi main ab koi ahmeiyat nahi thi …
Shaam ko khaane ke wakt papa ne official announcement kar di ki shaadi ki date agle mahine 5th May ko final hui hai … sab shaadi ki taiyaari main lag gaye … beech main hamara ek brief courtship period chala … magar kuch khaas nahi hua … deepak poore din kaam main busy rehate the … aur kabhi kabhi raat ko kuch deer hum phone paar baat karte the … ek aadh baar baahar gaye formal dinners par … magar mere liye ye rishta ek formality bhar tha … main bas muskurati … jitna poochte utna jawab deti aur khamoosh rehati … shayaad Deepak use meri .sharam aur haya samajhta tha … aise karte karte … aaj ka din finally aa hi gaya …
Aab Aage
Subah se hi ghaar main rishte daaro ki chehal pehal thi … pichle kuch dono se kayi saari rasmo ka daur chal raha tha … magar mujhe koi farak nahi pad raha tha … mere liye .. to sirf ye ek shaadi thi … ek formality … jis main ek admi ko ek aurat ke shaarer ko bhogne ka official license mil jaata hai … jaise jaise ghar waale kehate gaye … waise waise main karti gayi …
Sab kuch itni jaldi hua ki Mujhe pata hi nahi chala ki kab Mantro ke beech pandito ne hamari shaadi karwa di .. aur main ek gudiya jaise sab kuch muskurate hue karwati gayi …
Vidaayi ke samay … haa maa papa bahoot rooye … un ko aise dekh kar finally mujhe realization hua … ki aab mera is ghaar se naata toot chukka hai.. main tab foot foot ke rooyi … magar ab kuch nahi hoo sakta tha ..
Poore raaste main rooti rahi… deepak ji ke ghaar pahooch kar jaise taise waha ki raasme poori ki … aur mujhe apne nanad ke kamre main baitha diya gaya … aaj raat ko hamaari suhaag raat thi … jaise hi maine suna … mere maathe par chinta ki laakere ubhar gayi … jis daar se main anjaan thi … wo dar mujhe ab satane laga … main jis cheej ke liye aabhi tak cool thi … wo samay aate hi mere haath pair jaise foollne lage …
Meri shaadi to hoo gayi Deepak ji ke saath… magar maine un ko tan man se nahi apnaya tha … ye shaadi to mere liye ek samjhota tha … aaj raat ko suhaag raat … aur kal hum honeymoon ke liye bora bora islands jaa rahe the … sab kuch itni jaldi hoo raha tha …. Muje laga ki aaj raat ye shaitaan mere jism ke saath khelega .. aur main kuch bhi nahi kaar paaongi … tabhi mere man main ek nischay kiya .. ki main aaj raat Deepak ji ko apne shareer ko haath nahi lagane doongi … chahe kuch bhi hoo jaaye ….
Raat ko meri nanad ne mujhe sundar se Taiyaar kar ke … JW marriot ke room main pahoocha diya… mera dil jor jor se dhadak raha tha … ek ek minute ghante ke saaman lag raha tha … maine apne man main soch rakha tha … ki aaj raat ko hi main deepak ji ko saari baat saaf saaf bata doongi … lekin jo bhi ho unhe apne shareer ke saath nahi khelne doongi … fir ek khayaal aaya .. agar unhone mere saath jabardasti ki … to … nahi nahi … haan … kaarega hi … aakhir ek mard hai … aur ab to us ke paas license hai … wo kyo bhala peeche rahega .. thodi der baad room main Deepak ji aa gaye… main dar gayi .. main kuch bolne wali hi thi .. ki Deepak ji .. mere paas aaye… aur kaha … mujhe tum se ek sawaal karna hai … mujhe pata hai ki ye samay aise sawaal karne ka nahi hai magar … aaj ye jaarori hai … agar mane aaj ye sawaal nahi poocha to fir shayaad kaabhi nahi pooch paaonga … dekho Dipti aaj hum ek nayi jindagi ki suruwaat karne jaa rahe hain … aur main chahta hoon ki … hamare rishte ki buniyaad aachi hoo … saachi hoo … tabhi unhone mera haath apne haato main le liya … jise maine turant wapis kheech liya… tab unhone kaha ki poori shaadi main maine tumhare chehre par kushi ki ek bhi jhalak nahi dekhi … courtship period main bhi tum khamoosh rehati thi … maine haar baar yahi samjha ki tum ek sanskaari ghar ki ladki hoo … shaayad sharam ke mare … tum aisa karti hoo … magar na jaane kyo mujhe ab ye lag raha hai ki jaroor koi baat hai …. Kya tum is shaadi se khus nahi hoo ….. maine Deepak ji ki aakho main dekha aur man main soocha … ki bewakoof aaj ye swaaal kar raha hai …
Mujhe to bin maange muraad mil gayi … aur ek toote ki tarah akaash ki aur apne dil ki saari baat bol gayi … bolne ke baad khayaal aaya … ki ye maine kya keh diya … ek anjaan dar ab mujhe satane laga ….Deepak ji ne poori baat suni fir … unhoone paas se paani ka glass meri taraf badhaya … aur kaha … maine tumhaari poori baat suni … aur main tumhaare sach ki kadar karta hoon … tumhaari jagah agar main bhi hoota to main bhi aisa hi karta … Mujhe Deepak Ji se is jawaab ki ummedd nahi thi … main sirf tak taki laagaaye … un ki taraf dekhti rahi … unhone kaha … Ki ab to hamari shaadi hoo gayi ab mera tum se sirf ek hi sawaal hai … ki jo saachaai tum ne mujhe aaj batayi … agar pehale bata deti to … ye din na dekhna padta … itni der to main Deepak ji ke liye naa jaane kya kya sooch rahi thi … magar aab mujhe ye ehsaas hua ki … maine un ke saath kitni na insaafi ki hai … Deepak ji ne kaha … ki agar tumhe ye lagta hai ki ek mard aur aurat shaadi sirf saaririk sambandh banana ke liye karte hai .. to tum se mera ye waada hai ki jab tak tum na chaahoo .. main tumhaare sareer ko haath nahi lagaoonga.. magar jaise ki duniya ki najro main hamari shaadi hoo gayi hai … hame kam se kam duniya waalo ke saamne apne aap ko pati patni hi darshaana padega … main sirf un ki baat hi sun rahi thi .. un ho ne kaha … itni lambi jindagi jo saath kaatni hai … pati patni ka rishta to hum nibha nahi sakte magar kam se kam hum doost to baan hi sakte hain … itna sunte hi mere aakho se khushi ke aasu nikalne lage… maine kaha … Deepak ji I am really sorry … aap sach main ek dewta hai … aap ki doosti mujhe manjoor hai … Deepak ji ne kaha aab tum so jaao … aur wo paas ke soofe pe jaa ke soo gaye …
Subah hui … aur sab hame lene hotel aa gaye … Deepak ji ne kisi ko bhi jara sa shak nahi hoone diya .. dekhte dekhte hum bora bora ke sundar beeches par honeymoon bitaane gaye …. Sab kuch aacha tha … hum bahoot baatein karte … ek saath ghoomte … haste khelte .. maja karte … 7 din ka honeymoon khatam kar ke waapis Mumbai bhi aa gaaye …
Fir jindagi dheere dheere apni raftaar se aage badhne lagi …. Dekhte dekhte 9 – 10 mahine gujar gaye… in mahino main koi bhi din aisa nahi tha jis din Deepak ji ne meri chooti se chooti cheejo aur jaroorato ka khayaal nahi rakha … ek doost hoone ka unhone poora farj nibhaya …
Aaj subah safai karte karte ek diary mere haath lagi.. WO Deepak ji ki personal diary thi … jaise jaise maine us diary ko padhna suru kiya waise waise mujhe is baat ka ehsaas hoone laga ki deepak ji mujh se kitna pyaar karte hai.. us diary main unhone wo sab kuch likha tha jo ki wo mujhe kehna chahte the …. Magar kabhi na keh paaye.. Unhone baar baar likha tha ki … main us din ka hi intajaar kar raha hoon jab dipti ko mere pyaar ka ekhaas hooga … aur wo apne aap mujhe apne pati ke roop main swekaar karegi …
UN ke is nischal prem KO dekh kar mera dil mujhe kachootne laga … aur mujhe ehsaas hua ki main Deepak ji ke saamne kitni chooti hoon … ek aakash ki wajah se maine saare ladko ko ek hi kataar main khada kaar diya …. Mujhe koi adhikaar nahi banta ki main un ka jeewan barbaad kaar doon … unhe wo pyaar milna hi chahyiye … jis ke wo aadhikaari hai … kal 14 february hai …. Pyaar ka din … is din Log apne pyaar ka ijhaar karte hain… is se aacha din nahi milega apne .. dil ki baat kehane ka ….
Agli subah ke liye maine taiyaari aaj hi kaar li hai … main seedhe parlor gayi aur … poore shareer ki waxing … aur polish bhi karwa li … saath hi baahar nikaalte hue maine Deepak ji ke phone kar ke keh bhi diya tha ki … kal ka din wo mere saath bitaayenge … as usual unhone mujhe mana nahi kiya … 14 feb ko poora din hum ne saath bitaya … aur main sirf raat ka intajaar tha … maine JW marriot ka hamari suhaagraat wala room book karwaya hua tha … main aaj ki raat Deepak ji ko wo saari Khushiya Dena Chahti thi jis ke wo hakdaar Hai … aaj ki raat hi hamari suhaagraat thi … aur aaj ke baad hamara pyaar badhta hi gaya ……. badhta hi gaya...!
Shaam ko khaane ke wakt papa ne official announcement kar di ki shaadi ki date agle mahine 5th May ko final hui hai … sab shaadi ki taiyaari main lag gaye … beech main hamara ek brief courtship period chala … magar kuch khaas nahi hua … deepak poore din kaam main busy rehate the … aur kabhi kabhi raat ko kuch deer hum phone paar baat karte the … ek aadh baar baahar gaye formal dinners par … magar mere liye ye rishta ek formality bhar tha … main bas muskurati … jitna poochte utna jawab deti aur khamoosh rehati … shayaad Deepak use meri .sharam aur haya samajhta tha … aise karte karte … aaj ka din finally aa hi gaya …
Aab Aage
Subah se hi ghaar main rishte daaro ki chehal pehal thi … pichle kuch dono se kayi saari rasmo ka daur chal raha tha … magar mujhe koi farak nahi pad raha tha … mere liye .. to sirf ye ek shaadi thi … ek formality … jis main ek admi ko ek aurat ke shaarer ko bhogne ka official license mil jaata hai … jaise jaise ghar waale kehate gaye … waise waise main karti gayi …
Sab kuch itni jaldi hua ki Mujhe pata hi nahi chala ki kab Mantro ke beech pandito ne hamari shaadi karwa di .. aur main ek gudiya jaise sab kuch muskurate hue karwati gayi …
Vidaayi ke samay … haa maa papa bahoot rooye … un ko aise dekh kar finally mujhe realization hua … ki aab mera is ghaar se naata toot chukka hai.. main tab foot foot ke rooyi … magar ab kuch nahi hoo sakta tha ..
Poore raaste main rooti rahi… deepak ji ke ghaar pahooch kar jaise taise waha ki raasme poori ki … aur mujhe apne nanad ke kamre main baitha diya gaya … aaj raat ko hamaari suhaag raat thi … jaise hi maine suna … mere maathe par chinta ki laakere ubhar gayi … jis daar se main anjaan thi … wo dar mujhe ab satane laga … main jis cheej ke liye aabhi tak cool thi … wo samay aate hi mere haath pair jaise foollne lage …
Meri shaadi to hoo gayi Deepak ji ke saath… magar maine un ko tan man se nahi apnaya tha … ye shaadi to mere liye ek samjhota tha … aaj raat ko suhaag raat … aur kal hum honeymoon ke liye bora bora islands jaa rahe the … sab kuch itni jaldi hoo raha tha …. Muje laga ki aaj raat ye shaitaan mere jism ke saath khelega .. aur main kuch bhi nahi kaar paaongi … tabhi mere man main ek nischay kiya .. ki main aaj raat Deepak ji ko apne shareer ko haath nahi lagane doongi … chahe kuch bhi hoo jaaye ….
Raat ko meri nanad ne mujhe sundar se Taiyaar kar ke … JW marriot ke room main pahoocha diya… mera dil jor jor se dhadak raha tha … ek ek minute ghante ke saaman lag raha tha … maine apne man main soch rakha tha … ki aaj raat ko hi main deepak ji ko saari baat saaf saaf bata doongi … lekin jo bhi ho unhe apne shareer ke saath nahi khelne doongi … fir ek khayaal aaya .. agar unhone mere saath jabardasti ki … to … nahi nahi … haan … kaarega hi … aakhir ek mard hai … aur ab to us ke paas license hai … wo kyo bhala peeche rahega .. thodi der baad room main Deepak ji aa gaye… main dar gayi .. main kuch bolne wali hi thi .. ki Deepak ji .. mere paas aaye… aur kaha … mujhe tum se ek sawaal karna hai … mujhe pata hai ki ye samay aise sawaal karne ka nahi hai magar … aaj ye jaarori hai … agar mane aaj ye sawaal nahi poocha to fir shayaad kaabhi nahi pooch paaonga … dekho Dipti aaj hum ek nayi jindagi ki suruwaat karne jaa rahe hain … aur main chahta hoon ki … hamare rishte ki buniyaad aachi hoo … saachi hoo … tabhi unhone mera haath apne haato main le liya … jise maine turant wapis kheech liya… tab unhone kaha ki poori shaadi main maine tumhare chehre par kushi ki ek bhi jhalak nahi dekhi … courtship period main bhi tum khamoosh rehati thi … maine haar baar yahi samjha ki tum ek sanskaari ghar ki ladki hoo … shaayad sharam ke mare … tum aisa karti hoo … magar na jaane kyo mujhe ab ye lag raha hai ki jaroor koi baat hai …. Kya tum is shaadi se khus nahi hoo ….. maine Deepak ji ki aakho main dekha aur man main soocha … ki bewakoof aaj ye swaaal kar raha hai …
Mujhe to bin maange muraad mil gayi … aur ek toote ki tarah akaash ki aur apne dil ki saari baat bol gayi … bolne ke baad khayaal aaya … ki ye maine kya keh diya … ek anjaan dar ab mujhe satane laga ….Deepak ji ne poori baat suni fir … unhoone paas se paani ka glass meri taraf badhaya … aur kaha … maine tumhaari poori baat suni … aur main tumhaare sach ki kadar karta hoon … tumhaari jagah agar main bhi hoota to main bhi aisa hi karta … Mujhe Deepak Ji se is jawaab ki ummedd nahi thi … main sirf tak taki laagaaye … un ki taraf dekhti rahi … unhone kaha … Ki ab to hamari shaadi hoo gayi ab mera tum se sirf ek hi sawaal hai … ki jo saachaai tum ne mujhe aaj batayi … agar pehale bata deti to … ye din na dekhna padta … itni der to main Deepak ji ke liye naa jaane kya kya sooch rahi thi … magar aab mujhe ye ehsaas hua ki … maine un ke saath kitni na insaafi ki hai … Deepak ji ne kaha … ki agar tumhe ye lagta hai ki ek mard aur aurat shaadi sirf saaririk sambandh banana ke liye karte hai .. to tum se mera ye waada hai ki jab tak tum na chaahoo .. main tumhaare sareer ko haath nahi lagaoonga.. magar jaise ki duniya ki najro main hamari shaadi hoo gayi hai … hame kam se kam duniya waalo ke saamne apne aap ko pati patni hi darshaana padega … main sirf un ki baat hi sun rahi thi .. un ho ne kaha … itni lambi jindagi jo saath kaatni hai … pati patni ka rishta to hum nibha nahi sakte magar kam se kam hum doost to baan hi sakte hain … itna sunte hi mere aakho se khushi ke aasu nikalne lage… maine kaha … Deepak ji I am really sorry … aap sach main ek dewta hai … aap ki doosti mujhe manjoor hai … Deepak ji ne kaha aab tum so jaao … aur wo paas ke soofe pe jaa ke soo gaye …
Subah hui … aur sab hame lene hotel aa gaye … Deepak ji ne kisi ko bhi jara sa shak nahi hoone diya .. dekhte dekhte hum bora bora ke sundar beeches par honeymoon bitaane gaye …. Sab kuch aacha tha … hum bahoot baatein karte … ek saath ghoomte … haste khelte .. maja karte … 7 din ka honeymoon khatam kar ke waapis Mumbai bhi aa gaaye …
Fir jindagi dheere dheere apni raftaar se aage badhne lagi …. Dekhte dekhte 9 – 10 mahine gujar gaye… in mahino main koi bhi din aisa nahi tha jis din Deepak ji ne meri chooti se chooti cheejo aur jaroorato ka khayaal nahi rakha … ek doost hoone ka unhone poora farj nibhaya …
Aaj subah safai karte karte ek diary mere haath lagi.. WO Deepak ji ki personal diary thi … jaise jaise maine us diary ko padhna suru kiya waise waise mujhe is baat ka ehsaas hoone laga ki deepak ji mujh se kitna pyaar karte hai.. us diary main unhone wo sab kuch likha tha jo ki wo mujhe kehna chahte the …. Magar kabhi na keh paaye.. Unhone baar baar likha tha ki … main us din ka hi intajaar kar raha hoon jab dipti ko mere pyaar ka ekhaas hooga … aur wo apne aap mujhe apne pati ke roop main swekaar karegi …
UN ke is nischal prem KO dekh kar mera dil mujhe kachootne laga … aur mujhe ehsaas hua ki main Deepak ji ke saamne kitni chooti hoon … ek aakash ki wajah se maine saare ladko ko ek hi kataar main khada kaar diya …. Mujhe koi adhikaar nahi banta ki main un ka jeewan barbaad kaar doon … unhe wo pyaar milna hi chahyiye … jis ke wo aadhikaari hai … kal 14 february hai …. Pyaar ka din … is din Log apne pyaar ka ijhaar karte hain… is se aacha din nahi milega apne .. dil ki baat kehane ka ….
Agli subah ke liye maine taiyaari aaj hi kaar li hai … main seedhe parlor gayi aur … poore shareer ki waxing … aur polish bhi karwa li … saath hi baahar nikaalte hue maine Deepak ji ke phone kar ke keh bhi diya tha ki … kal ka din wo mere saath bitaayenge … as usual unhone mujhe mana nahi kiya … 14 feb ko poora din hum ne saath bitaya … aur main sirf raat ka intajaar tha … maine JW marriot ka hamari suhaagraat wala room book karwaya hua tha … main aaj ki raat Deepak ji ko wo saari Khushiya Dena Chahti thi jis ke wo hakdaar Hai … aaj ki raat hi hamari suhaagraat thi … aur aaj ke baad hamara pyaar badhta hi gaya ……. badhta hi gaya...!