us ke haath meri peeth aur kulhom par ghumane lage. mai us se aur wo mujhase chipakane lagaa. mere stan baar baar us ke seene se dabaaye. us ki bhi sas tej thi aur meri bhee. mujhe sharam bhi bahut a rahi thee. mera usake saath yah dusara moka thaa. ath mai jyada ektiv paart na lee. bas chupachaap padi rahee jo kiya usi ne kiyaa aur kya kiya ? are bhaaiwahi kiya jo aap mard log ham auratom ke saath karate ho. pahale saadi utaaree phir peteekot ka naada dhumdhaa..kheecha..dono cheeje tago se baahar...
mai to kahati hi rah gayee..are kya karate ho..-are kya karate ho.. wo to sab kheech khach ke nikaal diyaa. phir baari aayi blaauj kee.wo khula..mai to us ka haath pakad lee..nahi...yah nahi.. par wah kya sune ?.ulte pakada pakadi mem usaka haath kai baar mere mammom se takaraayaa. abhi tak wah mere mammom ko nahi pakada thaa. blaauj utaarane ke chakkar me usaka haath baar baar mere mammom se chua to bada hi achcha lagaa. aur phir jab usne meri baadi kholi to meri dasha bahut kharaab thee. sas bahut jor se chal rahi thee.
gaal gulaabi ho rahe the. dil dhad dhad karake baj raha thaa. shareer ka saara rakta bah kar neeche guptag ki taraph hi bah raha thaa. usane mere saare kapade khol daale. mai raat ke andhere mem naukar ki khatiya par namgi padi thee..aur phir andhere me mujhe sarasaraahat se laga ki wah bhi kapade utaar raha hai. phir do mardaane haathom ne meri tage utha dee.ghutano se mod dee. choda dee. kuch garam saa-kadak samardaana amg mere guptag se a tikaa. aur jor laga kar apana raasta mere andar banaane lagaa. dard ki ek teekhi lahar si mere andar daud gayee. mai apane hothom ko jor se bheech kar apani cheekh ko baahar na nikalane dee. shareer aith gayaa..mai bistar ki chaadar ko mutthi mem jakad lee. wah ghusata gaya aur mai use apane andar samaati gayee. sheeghra hi wah mere andar pura land ghusa kar dhakke lagaane lagaa. mard thaa. taakatawar thaa. pahaadi thaa. gav ka thaa..aur sabase badi baat.pichale chah mahine se apani beebi se nahi mila thaa. use shahar ki padhi likhi khubasurat malakin mil gayi to mast ho uthaa. jo iksath baasatha kari to mere liye to sambhaalana kathin ho gayaa. bahut jor jor se pela kambakta ne..mere paasa aur koi chaara bhi na thaa.
padi rahi pelawaati rahee. hariya ka land dusari baar meri chut mem gaya thaa. bahut mota sa.kada kada..garam garam..roj mai kalpana karati thi ki mera mard mujhe aise chodega waise chodegaa. aaj mai sachamuch chudawa rahi thee. vaastavik..sachchi ki chudaayee.mard ke land ki chudaayee..na to wah mere mammom ko haath lagaayaa. na hamaare beech koi chuma chaati huee. bas ek mote land lund ne ek vidhawa chut ko chod daalaa..aur phir jab khushi ke pal khatam hue to wah alag huaa. apana dher sa veerya vah mere amdar choda thaa. pata nahi kya hoga meraa.sochati mai utha baithee.aur namgi hi daud kar kamare se baahar nikal gayee. baatharum to mai ja kar mene apane kamare me kee. bahut sa veerya mere jagho aur jhatom par lag gaya thaa.sab mene paani se dho kar saaph kiyaa... (Agale Din).subah jab mai uthi to badan buri tarah tut raha tha. beete kal mene apane naukar hariya ke saath suhaagaraat jo manaayi thi. mai roj ki tarah skool gayi. khaana khaaya..
shaam ko pados ki misej varma a gayi to unake saath baithi. saara ruteen chalabas jo nahi chala wo yah tha ki mene saara din hariya se nazarem nahi milaayi. raat ko khaane ke baad jab mai rasoyi me gayi to wah vaheem tha. mera haath pakad kar bola.bibijee raat ko aaogi na.. mere to gaal sharam se laal ho uthe. haath chuda kar chali aayi. raat munna ke so jaane ke baad bhi meri aamkhom me neemd nahi thi. bas hariya ke baare me hi sochati rahi. kareeb ek ghanta beet gaya.usane intazaar kiya hoga. mai nahi gayi to wahi aaya. darawaaje ki kundi kya baji mera dil baj utha. maine dhadakate dil ko saadi se kas kar darawaaja khola.wahi tha..bibijee..mai andar aaum ?.mai na me garadan hilaayi to wah mera haath pakad kal ki tarah kheechata hua apane kamare ki or le chala. mai vidhava apane naukar ke land ka maja lene ke liye usake peeche peeche chal di. us raat hariya ke kamare me meri do baar chudaai hui. puri tarah saare kapade khol kar...
mai to na na hi karati rah gayi..wah meri ek na suna. wo bhi nmgamai bhi namgi. andhera kar ke. naukar ki khatiya par. wahi taamge utha karkal vaale aasan se..ek baar se to jaise us ka pet hi nahi bhara. ek baar nipatane ke thodi der baad hi khada karake dubaara ghused diya. bahut saara veerya meri chut me choda. par na mere mammom ko haath lagaaya na koi chumma chaati kiya. bas ek pahaadi land shahar ki pyaasi chut ko chodata raha. jab chud li to kal ki tarah hi uthakar chupachaap apane kamare me a gayi us raat jab mai soi to maine manthan kiya..sukh kaha hai. takiya daba ke kalpanik chudaayi me yaa hariya ke pahaadi mote land se vaastavik chudaayi me. vidhava hu to kya mujhe land se chudawaane ka adhikaar nahi hai ? jindagi bhar yum hi tadapati rahu ? nahi..mai hariya ka haath pakad leti hu. naukar he to kya hua. kya usake man nahi hai ? kya wah mard nahi hai? usame to aisa sab kuch hai jo aurat ko chaahiye padata hai. phir ? naukar hai to kya hua ? mard to hai. swaabhaav kitana achcha hai.
pichale do saal se mere saath hai kabhi shikaayat ka mauka nahi diya. are yah to aur bhi achcha hai. ghar ke ghar me.kisi ko maalum bhi na padega. samaaj ne shaadi ki samstha kyom banaayi hai? taakiland chut ka milan ghar ke ghar me hota rahe. jab land ka man ho wo chut ko chod le aur jab chut ka man aaye wo land se chuda le. har wakt dono ek dusare ke liye avelebal rahem. ab maan lo mai koi mard baahar ka karati hu to kya hogaa wo aayega to pure mohalle ko khabar lag jaayegi ki Seema ke ghar koi aaya hai. raat bhar to wo haragij nahi rah sakega. us ki khud ki bhi femili hogi. hamesha ek dar sa bana rahega. is se to yah kitana achcha hai. ghar ke ghar me pura mard chaaho to raat bhar maja lo..kisi ko kya pata padata ki tum apane ghar me kya kar rahe ho. phir is ki femili bhi gaamv me hai. yah to gaamv vese bhi saal chah maheene me jaata hai. un logom ko bhi kya phark padata hai ki hariya yahaam kisake saath maje lut raha hai..to mai kya karum ?.theek hai- ho gaya jo ho gaya..bhagawaan ki maraji samajh kabul karati hu..lekin hariya bhi kya ise kabul karegaa?.use kya chaahiye ?.mujhe maalum hai mard ko kya chaahiye hota hai jo use chaahiye wo mai use dumgi to wah kyom mana karega bhalaa?.wah bhi to bina aurat ke yahaam rahata hai.us ka bhi to man karata hoga. man to karata hi hai tabhi to kal bhi choda aur aaj phir a gaya..
yadi mere jaisi sundar aurat is se raaji raaji se chudaayegi to kyom nahi chodega bhala ?.dekhate hai aage kya hota hai mere bhaagya me mard ka sukh hai ya nahi.. agala din meri jindagi ka khubasurat din tha. mai phesala le chuki thi. mai hariya se sambandh kaayam rakhugi. jawaani ke maje lumgi. subah se mene apane roj ke kaam me man lagaaya..nahaate me mene apani chut ko saabun laga laga kar khub saaf kiya. baad me apani jhaamtadaar chut ko khub paavadar lagaaya. chut par haath lagaate hue mujhe hariya ka hi dhyaan aaya. ab tak yah chut hariya ke lund se do dinom me chaar baar chud chuki thi. ab yah chut hariya ki chut hai..dopahar mai skool gayi. shaam ko ghar ka dusara kaam kiya. khaane ke baadmai munna ko lekar apane kamare me a gayi. mujhe intazaara tha ki munna so jaaye to kuch ho. munna so gaya to socha mai khud hariya ke paas chali jaaum.phir man me aayadekhu to sahi aaj hariya ki kya riekshan rahati hai.wah intarested hoga to apane aap aayega. mere kaam sukh ka aage ka bhavishya usake aane, na aane par hi nirbhar rahega. mai intazaar karati rahi... mera intazaar vyarth nahi gaya. bhagawaan mujh par prasanna tha. thodi der baad kumdi khadaki..
mera man naach utha. meri khushi ka thikaana nahi tha.mai to utha kar seedhi devi ma ke simhaasan ke paas gayi aur unako haath jod kar namaskaar ki ki he ma mera sab kaam achche se karana.mujhe kisi cheej ki kami nahi hai.ghar hai,naukari hai,bachcha hai...bas mard nahi haimard ka land nahi hai.so ab aapane samyog banaaya hai..ise theek se nibhaane dena. itani der me to kundi dubaara khadak gayi. mene ja kar darawaaja khola.hariya saamane tha. use saamane pa kar mai na jaane kyom sharama uthi..so gayi thi beebi ji..usane bade pyaar se pucha..mujhase to mumh se bol hi nahi phuta. bas na me gardan hila di. tab...hariya..mera naukar..mujhe haath pakad kal ki tarah hi apane kamare me le gaya. usake saath jaate jaate mera dil kal se bhi jyada jor jor se dhadak raha tha. is ghadi ka to mai shaam se intazaar kar rahi thi. wahaam.us ke kamare me..jab wah mujhe pakad kheechane laga to mai chitak kar bol uthi.darawaaja..wah chupachaap ja kar darawaaja laga aaya..to mai saadi ka pallu umgali par lapetate hue kahi.har.r.riya..la..i..t. wah chupachaap ja kar laaeet bujha kamare me andhakaar kar diya.aur paas a kar mujhe pakada to mai khud usake seene se lag gayi.
wah wahi khade khade mujhe sahalane laga..wah meri peeth par haath phera..peeth se kamar par aaya.aur phir neeche pomd tak pahumch gaya. aapase sach kahati hu usake dwaara apane pomd sahalaaye jaane se meri saams dhokani ki tarah chalane lagi thi. wah khade bahut der tak mere pichawaade par apana haath pherata raha. usake is tarah haath pherane se hi mai to geeli ho uthi. aur buri tarah us ke seene me ghusane lagi..mera gala sukh gaya tha.khade rahana mushkil ho raha tha. aisa lag raha tha mai behosh ho kar hi gir padumgi. usi haalat me wah mere kapade utaarane laga to meri haalat aur kharaab hogayi. us ne khade khade hi andhere band kamare me mere saare kapade khol daale..saadi.1.peteekot...2.blouse..3.aur ant me bra.4.aapaki jaanakaari ke liye bata du ki waise skool jaate samay to mai penti pahanati hu par ghar me rahati hu to utaar deti hu.
aur raat me bhi mai to saadi blaauj me hi soti hu.meksi nahi pahanati hu..to.mai ek dam namgi ho kar bahut sharamaayi.wo to achcha tha ki andhera tha. phir pal bhar wo alag hua aur apane kapade khol diya. ab jo mujhe khade khade apani baahom me liya to wo pal mere liye bahut aanamd daayak tha. bahut anokha.
mai to kahati hi rah gayee..are kya karate ho..-are kya karate ho.. wo to sab kheech khach ke nikaal diyaa. phir baari aayi blaauj kee.wo khula..mai to us ka haath pakad lee..nahi...yah nahi.. par wah kya sune ?.ulte pakada pakadi mem usaka haath kai baar mere mammom se takaraayaa. abhi tak wah mere mammom ko nahi pakada thaa. blaauj utaarane ke chakkar me usaka haath baar baar mere mammom se chua to bada hi achcha lagaa. aur phir jab usne meri baadi kholi to meri dasha bahut kharaab thee. sas bahut jor se chal rahi thee.
gaal gulaabi ho rahe the. dil dhad dhad karake baj raha thaa. shareer ka saara rakta bah kar neeche guptag ki taraph hi bah raha thaa. usane mere saare kapade khol daale. mai raat ke andhere mem naukar ki khatiya par namgi padi thee..aur phir andhere me mujhe sarasaraahat se laga ki wah bhi kapade utaar raha hai. phir do mardaane haathom ne meri tage utha dee.ghutano se mod dee. choda dee. kuch garam saa-kadak samardaana amg mere guptag se a tikaa. aur jor laga kar apana raasta mere andar banaane lagaa. dard ki ek teekhi lahar si mere andar daud gayee. mai apane hothom ko jor se bheech kar apani cheekh ko baahar na nikalane dee. shareer aith gayaa..mai bistar ki chaadar ko mutthi mem jakad lee. wah ghusata gaya aur mai use apane andar samaati gayee. sheeghra hi wah mere andar pura land ghusa kar dhakke lagaane lagaa. mard thaa. taakatawar thaa. pahaadi thaa. gav ka thaa..aur sabase badi baat.pichale chah mahine se apani beebi se nahi mila thaa. use shahar ki padhi likhi khubasurat malakin mil gayi to mast ho uthaa. jo iksath baasatha kari to mere liye to sambhaalana kathin ho gayaa. bahut jor jor se pela kambakta ne..mere paasa aur koi chaara bhi na thaa.
padi rahi pelawaati rahee. hariya ka land dusari baar meri chut mem gaya thaa. bahut mota sa.kada kada..garam garam..roj mai kalpana karati thi ki mera mard mujhe aise chodega waise chodegaa. aaj mai sachamuch chudawa rahi thee. vaastavik..sachchi ki chudaayee.mard ke land ki chudaayee..na to wah mere mammom ko haath lagaayaa. na hamaare beech koi chuma chaati huee. bas ek mote land lund ne ek vidhawa chut ko chod daalaa..aur phir jab khushi ke pal khatam hue to wah alag huaa. apana dher sa veerya vah mere amdar choda thaa. pata nahi kya hoga meraa.sochati mai utha baithee.aur namgi hi daud kar kamare se baahar nikal gayee. baatharum to mai ja kar mene apane kamare me kee. bahut sa veerya mere jagho aur jhatom par lag gaya thaa.sab mene paani se dho kar saaph kiyaa... (Agale Din).subah jab mai uthi to badan buri tarah tut raha tha. beete kal mene apane naukar hariya ke saath suhaagaraat jo manaayi thi. mai roj ki tarah skool gayi. khaana khaaya..
shaam ko pados ki misej varma a gayi to unake saath baithi. saara ruteen chalabas jo nahi chala wo yah tha ki mene saara din hariya se nazarem nahi milaayi. raat ko khaane ke baad jab mai rasoyi me gayi to wah vaheem tha. mera haath pakad kar bola.bibijee raat ko aaogi na.. mere to gaal sharam se laal ho uthe. haath chuda kar chali aayi. raat munna ke so jaane ke baad bhi meri aamkhom me neemd nahi thi. bas hariya ke baare me hi sochati rahi. kareeb ek ghanta beet gaya.usane intazaar kiya hoga. mai nahi gayi to wahi aaya. darawaaje ki kundi kya baji mera dil baj utha. maine dhadakate dil ko saadi se kas kar darawaaja khola.wahi tha..bibijee..mai andar aaum ?.mai na me garadan hilaayi to wah mera haath pakad kal ki tarah kheechata hua apane kamare ki or le chala. mai vidhava apane naukar ke land ka maja lene ke liye usake peeche peeche chal di. us raat hariya ke kamare me meri do baar chudaai hui. puri tarah saare kapade khol kar...
mai to na na hi karati rah gayi..wah meri ek na suna. wo bhi nmgamai bhi namgi. andhera kar ke. naukar ki khatiya par. wahi taamge utha karkal vaale aasan se..ek baar se to jaise us ka pet hi nahi bhara. ek baar nipatane ke thodi der baad hi khada karake dubaara ghused diya. bahut saara veerya meri chut me choda. par na mere mammom ko haath lagaaya na koi chumma chaati kiya. bas ek pahaadi land shahar ki pyaasi chut ko chodata raha. jab chud li to kal ki tarah hi uthakar chupachaap apane kamare me a gayi us raat jab mai soi to maine manthan kiya..sukh kaha hai. takiya daba ke kalpanik chudaayi me yaa hariya ke pahaadi mote land se vaastavik chudaayi me. vidhava hu to kya mujhe land se chudawaane ka adhikaar nahi hai ? jindagi bhar yum hi tadapati rahu ? nahi..mai hariya ka haath pakad leti hu. naukar he to kya hua. kya usake man nahi hai ? kya wah mard nahi hai? usame to aisa sab kuch hai jo aurat ko chaahiye padata hai. phir ? naukar hai to kya hua ? mard to hai. swaabhaav kitana achcha hai.
pichale do saal se mere saath hai kabhi shikaayat ka mauka nahi diya. are yah to aur bhi achcha hai. ghar ke ghar me.kisi ko maalum bhi na padega. samaaj ne shaadi ki samstha kyom banaayi hai? taakiland chut ka milan ghar ke ghar me hota rahe. jab land ka man ho wo chut ko chod le aur jab chut ka man aaye wo land se chuda le. har wakt dono ek dusare ke liye avelebal rahem. ab maan lo mai koi mard baahar ka karati hu to kya hogaa wo aayega to pure mohalle ko khabar lag jaayegi ki Seema ke ghar koi aaya hai. raat bhar to wo haragij nahi rah sakega. us ki khud ki bhi femili hogi. hamesha ek dar sa bana rahega. is se to yah kitana achcha hai. ghar ke ghar me pura mard chaaho to raat bhar maja lo..kisi ko kya pata padata ki tum apane ghar me kya kar rahe ho. phir is ki femili bhi gaamv me hai. yah to gaamv vese bhi saal chah maheene me jaata hai. un logom ko bhi kya phark padata hai ki hariya yahaam kisake saath maje lut raha hai..to mai kya karum ?.theek hai- ho gaya jo ho gaya..bhagawaan ki maraji samajh kabul karati hu..lekin hariya bhi kya ise kabul karegaa?.use kya chaahiye ?.mujhe maalum hai mard ko kya chaahiye hota hai jo use chaahiye wo mai use dumgi to wah kyom mana karega bhalaa?.wah bhi to bina aurat ke yahaam rahata hai.us ka bhi to man karata hoga. man to karata hi hai tabhi to kal bhi choda aur aaj phir a gaya..
yadi mere jaisi sundar aurat is se raaji raaji se chudaayegi to kyom nahi chodega bhala ?.dekhate hai aage kya hota hai mere bhaagya me mard ka sukh hai ya nahi.. agala din meri jindagi ka khubasurat din tha. mai phesala le chuki thi. mai hariya se sambandh kaayam rakhugi. jawaani ke maje lumgi. subah se mene apane roj ke kaam me man lagaaya..nahaate me mene apani chut ko saabun laga laga kar khub saaf kiya. baad me apani jhaamtadaar chut ko khub paavadar lagaaya. chut par haath lagaate hue mujhe hariya ka hi dhyaan aaya. ab tak yah chut hariya ke lund se do dinom me chaar baar chud chuki thi. ab yah chut hariya ki chut hai..dopahar mai skool gayi. shaam ko ghar ka dusara kaam kiya. khaane ke baadmai munna ko lekar apane kamare me a gayi. mujhe intazaara tha ki munna so jaaye to kuch ho. munna so gaya to socha mai khud hariya ke paas chali jaaum.phir man me aayadekhu to sahi aaj hariya ki kya riekshan rahati hai.wah intarested hoga to apane aap aayega. mere kaam sukh ka aage ka bhavishya usake aane, na aane par hi nirbhar rahega. mai intazaar karati rahi... mera intazaar vyarth nahi gaya. bhagawaan mujh par prasanna tha. thodi der baad kumdi khadaki..
mera man naach utha. meri khushi ka thikaana nahi tha.mai to utha kar seedhi devi ma ke simhaasan ke paas gayi aur unako haath jod kar namaskaar ki ki he ma mera sab kaam achche se karana.mujhe kisi cheej ki kami nahi hai.ghar hai,naukari hai,bachcha hai...bas mard nahi haimard ka land nahi hai.so ab aapane samyog banaaya hai..ise theek se nibhaane dena. itani der me to kundi dubaara khadak gayi. mene ja kar darawaaja khola.hariya saamane tha. use saamane pa kar mai na jaane kyom sharama uthi..so gayi thi beebi ji..usane bade pyaar se pucha..mujhase to mumh se bol hi nahi phuta. bas na me gardan hila di. tab...hariya..mera naukar..mujhe haath pakad kal ki tarah hi apane kamare me le gaya. usake saath jaate jaate mera dil kal se bhi jyada jor jor se dhadak raha tha. is ghadi ka to mai shaam se intazaar kar rahi thi. wahaam.us ke kamare me..jab wah mujhe pakad kheechane laga to mai chitak kar bol uthi.darawaaja..wah chupachaap ja kar darawaaja laga aaya..to mai saadi ka pallu umgali par lapetate hue kahi.har.r.riya..la..i..t. wah chupachaap ja kar laaeet bujha kamare me andhakaar kar diya.aur paas a kar mujhe pakada to mai khud usake seene se lag gayi.
wah wahi khade khade mujhe sahalane laga..wah meri peeth par haath phera..peeth se kamar par aaya.aur phir neeche pomd tak pahumch gaya. aapase sach kahati hu usake dwaara apane pomd sahalaaye jaane se meri saams dhokani ki tarah chalane lagi thi. wah khade bahut der tak mere pichawaade par apana haath pherata raha. usake is tarah haath pherane se hi mai to geeli ho uthi. aur buri tarah us ke seene me ghusane lagi..mera gala sukh gaya tha.khade rahana mushkil ho raha tha. aisa lag raha tha mai behosh ho kar hi gir padumgi. usi haalat me wah mere kapade utaarane laga to meri haalat aur kharaab hogayi. us ne khade khade hi andhere band kamare me mere saare kapade khol daale..saadi.1.peteekot...2.blouse..3.aur ant me bra.4.aapaki jaanakaari ke liye bata du ki waise skool jaate samay to mai penti pahanati hu par ghar me rahati hu to utaar deti hu.
aur raat me bhi mai to saadi blaauj me hi soti hu.meksi nahi pahanati hu..to.mai ek dam namgi ho kar bahut sharamaayi.wo to achcha tha ki andhera tha. phir pal bhar wo alag hua aur apane kapade khol diya. ab jo mujhe khade khade apani baahom me liya to wo pal mere liye bahut aanamd daayak tha. bahut anokha.