I really don't know that why I am writing my incident, it may help me to take off some of my guilt. In the beginning I will say that it's a true incident, and I would like to read your views on this. As I remember every moment of my past that is why apart from the description of the incident I have tried to write down exact wording of that day with translation into Standard English,
and from my write reader's will come to know that I am really very weak in grammar, so just forgive me for that. I am Garima, female of 28 and I was born and bought up in middle class family which was bit more devoted towards the spirituality than others. In company of my other family members I was also grew up with same thoughts and apart from working in an export house
I use to spent reasonable time in prayer in the morning and evening. At the age of 24 I got married in the same city, in same cast and religion. My new home had five members including me, means my husband, my in laws and my brother in law, Sonu. On the very first night my husband talked to me about his past that he was in love with some other girl
which does not belong to same cast and that is why his parents did not accepted that relation and he has been emotionally blackmailed to do this marriage. For me it was relief when my husband continued and said that he has accepted the truth and he will never look into his past as I am his present and future. He just wanted to get things into my knowledge and I really liked this.
Life moved on and in the beginning everything was good and smooth. I continued my job and got adjusted in the family very easily as my life style after marriage was intact, everything in my new home was same as it was in my parents home, like eating habits and all basic things, except a female member, who was my younger sister in my parent's home and now I had a male member who was my brother in law.
Sonu and me were at almost same age and initially there were bit of hesitation between us in conversation but gradually that disappeared and he became very good friend. He use to address me Bhabhi from the beginning and initially I started addressing him Bhaiya, but he forced me to address him by his name as he was younger than me, just a few months.
Couple of years passed in love and harmony without any trouble, between this times my husband somewhat informed me that his ex-girlfriend has got fixed with one guy and soon she will also get married. It did not made any impact on me, as I use to trust my husband that now Rashmi(his ex) is his past and he is totally out of it,
and truly speaking I never got any hint from my husband's gesture or behavior that he is still into it. As far as my sex life was concerned, it was ordinary, Harish(my husband) never forced me and we had sex whenever we felt like having it. I must say that apart from all family members Sonu, my devar was the one who use to care for me most and use to spend his free time with me.
After some time I faced few comments from my mother in law about what plan we have for baby. I talked to Harish my husband about that and he avoided that saying that he needs some time to prepare himself before taking another responsibility. Some more time passed like that and eventually on one fateful day I saw my husband walking in the posh market in the afternoon
when I was into the same area with my colleague for some shopping. I was about to call him as I was pleasantly surprised, but suddenly I realized that he was not alone, he was walking along with a female of the same age. I stopped and moved from there immediately, as if I have not seen anything.
I remained mentally occupied through out the day; I came home in the evening and remained silent most of the time. I was praying to god with in myself for the peace and harmony in my life, and tried to convince myself that nothing is wrong. I was really much occupied and for Sonu it was very easy to guess that something is wrong with me.
He tried to ask me about it and after lot of hesitation, I asked him if he has ever seen Rashmi,(my husbands ex-gf) he said yes and asked me the reason of this question. I asked him about her appearance and he explained me about the girl which was walking along with my husband in the noon in that market.
After that I revealed the truth to Sonu and asked him if he can help me to look into the matter. Initially he took this casually and told me to remain relaxed as there is nothing wrong. But I was really worried about this as my intuition was saying that something is wrong. Sonu saw tears in my eyes and promised me that he will himself look into the matter and reveal the truth in any case.
Finally Sonu came up with a bad news that my husband is meeting his ex regularly as she had broken her marriage after being tied in the relation for more than a year. My trust was shattered, I was disappointed and could not decide that what I have to do. For me only Sonu was the one who use to think in my favor.
My mother in law was waiting for her grandchild and I could see from her behavior that she was holding me responsible for the delay, and eventually this delay was making her think about my fertility. Few weeks passed like that and slowly I was getting into depression, I stopped talking to everybody and remained very limited in daily course and use to speak whatever was required.
Nobody noticed this change in me, except Sonu, and he tried to cheer me up and said as such there is nothing to doubt about them, and they (my husband and his ex gf) could be good friends. Couple of times my husband asked for sex in the night, I had it for him, though I was not feeling like doing it, he did not asked any reason for my ignorant gesture.
One day I found Condom in the inner pocket of my husband's wallet and that thing proved my husband is not only meeting his ex regularly, but he is also having physical relation with her and this fact made me more sadden. One day when I reached home there was nobody at home except Sonu,
after changing I went into kitchen to prepare dinner and couple of times Sonu tried to crack joke, as he use to make me laugh and when I did not reacted to his jokes he tried more and somewhere I got irritated, and screamed over him. He went silent and asked me the problem and I busted in cry and spoke everything about the thing which I found in Harish's wallet.
He revealed the truth that he knew this fact that his brother is having physical relation with that girl from very long time even before this fact came in my sight, and he has seen him with that girl very often, lot before than me, and he deliberately hide this fact from me because he did not wanted to see me depressed.
I was already somewhat out of my senses and I simply exploded on Sonu without any reason and took out my frustration on him. He did not utter a word and remained there to hear every word I spoke. Now my behavior towards my husband changed a lot and became more ignorant and this time he sensed this change in me.
Couple of times he asked but I did not spoke to him about that and made few sarcastic notes. Next day in the evening when both the parents were not home because of some reason Sonu and Harish fought because of me, Sonu tried to talk to Harish about this matter and Harish took it on his ego and yelled over me saying, "haan hai mera affair....... tune jo karna hai karle"
(yes I have an affair, do whatever you can do to stop me). Finally thing happened for which I was scared, as such I could not see any solution of this and from my side I tried to talk to my husband in piece that why he is doing this to me and what I can do to take out the solution, but he was not ready to talk to me, and whenever he spoke anything in this context it was full of male ego,
I remember once his sentence was "mujhe meri life mein koi interference nahi chahiye, mujhe maloom hai jo main karr raha hoon, tumhe mere saath rahna hai to mere tarike se rahna padega, nahi to tum ghar chhod ke jaa sakti ho"(I don't want any interference in life, I know what I am doing and you have to live with it, or you can leave the house).
I thought about leaving the house but stepped back after thinking about my parents at that time they were not at the stage where they can bear this shock. I remained there in the house and some more time passed, everything was normal on the surface but internally I was going through hell.
Some more time passed like that, more than two months, and in these two months me and my husband never came in contact sexually, and truly speaking if he would have asked for it then I would have did it, but as such his ego was driving him and he never talked to me about anything except the thing which is required.
Gradually my husband started spending even more time outside the house, and he use to show that he is having load of work to my in laws, only me and Sonu knew the truth that Harish is spending time with Rashmi after his working hours. Slowly I was getting isolated in the family because of my thoughts, many times Sonu tried to cheer me up,
but my behavior got bit reluctant towards him also, but he never said anything about that, some more time passed like that. One day when I reached home, I came to knew that me and my Husband were suppose to attend a marriage party as my in laws were going out of town on the same evening. I was aware of there out station program, but I was not aware of this marriage invitation.
My husband tried to avoid that but his parents insisted him to attend this occasion and initially Sonu was going with them till railway station to board them the train and later he was suppose to join us on the venue. After bit of argument we moved and Sonu joined us on the marriage venue,
later around 10 when we were standing in the gathering Harish's phone rang and by chance I got glance of the screen and it was Rashmi, he talked to him in yes, no, ok, achha, abhi battata hoon ( I will tell you) and all and disconnected the line, and after that spoke to Sonu that he is suppose to go the factory where he works,
there is some sort of emergency and he cannot avoid that, and told him to take me home along with him on the bike as he will not be able to come in the night.
and from my write reader's will come to know that I am really very weak in grammar, so just forgive me for that. I am Garima, female of 28 and I was born and bought up in middle class family which was bit more devoted towards the spirituality than others. In company of my other family members I was also grew up with same thoughts and apart from working in an export house
I use to spent reasonable time in prayer in the morning and evening. At the age of 24 I got married in the same city, in same cast and religion. My new home had five members including me, means my husband, my in laws and my brother in law, Sonu. On the very first night my husband talked to me about his past that he was in love with some other girl
which does not belong to same cast and that is why his parents did not accepted that relation and he has been emotionally blackmailed to do this marriage. For me it was relief when my husband continued and said that he has accepted the truth and he will never look into his past as I am his present and future. He just wanted to get things into my knowledge and I really liked this.
Life moved on and in the beginning everything was good and smooth. I continued my job and got adjusted in the family very easily as my life style after marriage was intact, everything in my new home was same as it was in my parents home, like eating habits and all basic things, except a female member, who was my younger sister in my parent's home and now I had a male member who was my brother in law.
Sonu and me were at almost same age and initially there were bit of hesitation between us in conversation but gradually that disappeared and he became very good friend. He use to address me Bhabhi from the beginning and initially I started addressing him Bhaiya, but he forced me to address him by his name as he was younger than me, just a few months.
Couple of years passed in love and harmony without any trouble, between this times my husband somewhat informed me that his ex-girlfriend has got fixed with one guy and soon she will also get married. It did not made any impact on me, as I use to trust my husband that now Rashmi(his ex) is his past and he is totally out of it,
and truly speaking I never got any hint from my husband's gesture or behavior that he is still into it. As far as my sex life was concerned, it was ordinary, Harish(my husband) never forced me and we had sex whenever we felt like having it. I must say that apart from all family members Sonu, my devar was the one who use to care for me most and use to spend his free time with me.
After some time I faced few comments from my mother in law about what plan we have for baby. I talked to Harish my husband about that and he avoided that saying that he needs some time to prepare himself before taking another responsibility. Some more time passed like that and eventually on one fateful day I saw my husband walking in the posh market in the afternoon
when I was into the same area with my colleague for some shopping. I was about to call him as I was pleasantly surprised, but suddenly I realized that he was not alone, he was walking along with a female of the same age. I stopped and moved from there immediately, as if I have not seen anything.
I remained mentally occupied through out the day; I came home in the evening and remained silent most of the time. I was praying to god with in myself for the peace and harmony in my life, and tried to convince myself that nothing is wrong. I was really much occupied and for Sonu it was very easy to guess that something is wrong with me.
He tried to ask me about it and after lot of hesitation, I asked him if he has ever seen Rashmi,(my husbands ex-gf) he said yes and asked me the reason of this question. I asked him about her appearance and he explained me about the girl which was walking along with my husband in the noon in that market.
After that I revealed the truth to Sonu and asked him if he can help me to look into the matter. Initially he took this casually and told me to remain relaxed as there is nothing wrong. But I was really worried about this as my intuition was saying that something is wrong. Sonu saw tears in my eyes and promised me that he will himself look into the matter and reveal the truth in any case.
Finally Sonu came up with a bad news that my husband is meeting his ex regularly as she had broken her marriage after being tied in the relation for more than a year. My trust was shattered, I was disappointed and could not decide that what I have to do. For me only Sonu was the one who use to think in my favor.
My mother in law was waiting for her grandchild and I could see from her behavior that she was holding me responsible for the delay, and eventually this delay was making her think about my fertility. Few weeks passed like that and slowly I was getting into depression, I stopped talking to everybody and remained very limited in daily course and use to speak whatever was required.
Nobody noticed this change in me, except Sonu, and he tried to cheer me up and said as such there is nothing to doubt about them, and they (my husband and his ex gf) could be good friends. Couple of times my husband asked for sex in the night, I had it for him, though I was not feeling like doing it, he did not asked any reason for my ignorant gesture.
One day I found Condom in the inner pocket of my husband's wallet and that thing proved my husband is not only meeting his ex regularly, but he is also having physical relation with her and this fact made me more sadden. One day when I reached home there was nobody at home except Sonu,
after changing I went into kitchen to prepare dinner and couple of times Sonu tried to crack joke, as he use to make me laugh and when I did not reacted to his jokes he tried more and somewhere I got irritated, and screamed over him. He went silent and asked me the problem and I busted in cry and spoke everything about the thing which I found in Harish's wallet.
He revealed the truth that he knew this fact that his brother is having physical relation with that girl from very long time even before this fact came in my sight, and he has seen him with that girl very often, lot before than me, and he deliberately hide this fact from me because he did not wanted to see me depressed.
I was already somewhat out of my senses and I simply exploded on Sonu without any reason and took out my frustration on him. He did not utter a word and remained there to hear every word I spoke. Now my behavior towards my husband changed a lot and became more ignorant and this time he sensed this change in me.
Couple of times he asked but I did not spoke to him about that and made few sarcastic notes. Next day in the evening when both the parents were not home because of some reason Sonu and Harish fought because of me, Sonu tried to talk to Harish about this matter and Harish took it on his ego and yelled over me saying, "haan hai mera affair....... tune jo karna hai karle"
(yes I have an affair, do whatever you can do to stop me). Finally thing happened for which I was scared, as such I could not see any solution of this and from my side I tried to talk to my husband in piece that why he is doing this to me and what I can do to take out the solution, but he was not ready to talk to me, and whenever he spoke anything in this context it was full of male ego,
I remember once his sentence was "mujhe meri life mein koi interference nahi chahiye, mujhe maloom hai jo main karr raha hoon, tumhe mere saath rahna hai to mere tarike se rahna padega, nahi to tum ghar chhod ke jaa sakti ho"(I don't want any interference in life, I know what I am doing and you have to live with it, or you can leave the house).
I thought about leaving the house but stepped back after thinking about my parents at that time they were not at the stage where they can bear this shock. I remained there in the house and some more time passed, everything was normal on the surface but internally I was going through hell.
Some more time passed like that, more than two months, and in these two months me and my husband never came in contact sexually, and truly speaking if he would have asked for it then I would have did it, but as such his ego was driving him and he never talked to me about anything except the thing which is required.
Gradually my husband started spending even more time outside the house, and he use to show that he is having load of work to my in laws, only me and Sonu knew the truth that Harish is spending time with Rashmi after his working hours. Slowly I was getting isolated in the family because of my thoughts, many times Sonu tried to cheer me up,
but my behavior got bit reluctant towards him also, but he never said anything about that, some more time passed like that. One day when I reached home, I came to knew that me and my Husband were suppose to attend a marriage party as my in laws were going out of town on the same evening. I was aware of there out station program, but I was not aware of this marriage invitation.
My husband tried to avoid that but his parents insisted him to attend this occasion and initially Sonu was going with them till railway station to board them the train and later he was suppose to join us on the venue. After bit of argument we moved and Sonu joined us on the marriage venue,
later around 10 when we were standing in the gathering Harish's phone rang and by chance I got glance of the screen and it was Rashmi, he talked to him in yes, no, ok, achha, abhi battata hoon ( I will tell you) and all and disconnected the line, and after that spoke to Sonu that he is suppose to go the factory where he works,
there is some sort of emergency and he cannot avoid that, and told him to take me home along with him on the bike as he will not be able to come in the night.